Tuesday, October 21, 2008

In my heart now ... I still love CWT.. But There nothing I can do anymore... I did my best... I really dun wan to give up ... But I guess " A dead can't get back to life again "... Is it really going to be the full stop ?? or a comma ?? My army is here .. She dun appear to care about it ... well.. I guess Its not a big deal to her anyway.. Shouldn't have bother her anymore.. Asking her to join my life activity... she dun care oso .. well.. maybe this is wat people call ... RETRIBUTION ... the way she treat me isn't any closer at all ... I guess the only string that we held together is breaking soon ... Does she even ever hold on to it ?? I think too much .. Im jus a nobody in her life.. I think Im not good for u also... when u are down.. I didn't get to care and console u ... I didn't even noe about it ... But who to blame.. We are not close .. I can't blame u , or blame myself... Jus blame that we are not fated togehter?? at 1st I tot that we were really fated together .. But .. now.... The result that everyone see... haiz.. Why can't I love a person whole-heartedly..?? Jus when i really wanted to love CWT whole heartedly ... She dun know about it ..


Someone UP there??? Can you tell me or tell her wat to do ??? Seriously CONFUSED....
Kenpachi.87 Written on 8:45 AM

Friday, August 22, 2008

A nightmare or a bad omen ?? I have to train myself up to protect her .. I cannot let this happen ... She is the person that I truly love ... I dun wan to lose her ... I muz protect her till the veri end.. Our distance is getting quite far.. No matter how far its is .. I muz pull back.. WT. trust in me... I will be the man that by your side and take care of u ... ^^
Kenpachi.87 Written on 2:30 AM

Monday, August 11, 2008

Feeling so confused now.. Sometimes I feel like giving up ... But when I wanted to give up ... I tell myself.. If I were to miss this chance .. I might not be able to find someone like her again... CWT..


Saying that I have confident in you.. I been always saying that.. But actually is myself that I dun have confident in myself... I too afraid to lose you ... Please ... Understand how I feel... you can play with my feeling .. If you really wanted to do that .. I won't blame you for hurting me.. becoz its my heart that I really love you ....

Like wat you say.. There will be much better girls outside than you .. But there is only 1 person in this world that I can continue with ... I just really hope is you .. No one else..


Since Friday you gone missing .. your phone was switched off.. I was like so frightened.. At night I went to your house below .. to see... the window was closed and no light on .. The more Im frightened.. This few days... I didn't sleep and eat well.. until this morning I heard your voice..
Its like my heart start to settle down.. I just woke up ... and 1st thing to do is dial your no.


I really dun wish to put down .. I felt that our honeymoon period already over.. Even if I put down ... I will not accept other girls.. Becoz I will only love you only...


Love , CD
Kenpachi.87 Written on 9:30 AM

Thursday, July 24, 2008

I make my swear le.. From now on ... I will not fall in love with anyone else.. Becuz I already know and have already found my love... Its you WT. =) Things have nv been so clear b4 ... I dun deserve wat modelling GF , or who ever so beautiful ... Becuz I know how much I weigh ... You are what I ever wanted... Unless you think that I dun suit you .. in my opinion .. I feel that we are an item... I suit you and you suit me ... =) Just give yourselves a chance ... I will prove to you that my love is really true .. =)
Kenpachi.87 Written on 7:29 AM

Monday, July 21, 2008

My birthday.

What a nice cake =)

Make a wish , Make a wish but dun burn my hair =P

Give it a blow man... =X

Do not mess around with the knife..

MOON .. Remind me of someone ... =)

Best friends

Finger Lickin' good..

Cannibalizing in progress... =X

Can you still recognise me ???

Clown Employed by the Emo club =)

Kenpachi.87 Written on 12:28 AM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Sorry that I can't chat with you just now thru phone .. I tot that you were studying so jus send a sms to see if you are free to reply or not... Seeing so long you nv reply ... so i didn't want to disturb.. then went to play basketball at near the chalet...

Just hoping that you are doing fine =) love you .. <3
Kenpachi.87 Written on 12:13 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008

Today train alot of judo and ground fight technique ... OMG ... my chest hurts.. I think i Fall too much ... Hope its recover fast fast =) anyway After seeing your sms .. I actually dun noe how to reply.... But you asked mi why I like u so much ... I think i only can say... Its not that I like you ... But is how much that I love you ... Loving a person is to accept the person in whole ... taking the person's freedom , social friends into consideration .. Its true that friends are more important than relationship ... This issue I can understand.. Its all talking about trust... If a guy trust a girl ... What the girl says , guy should believe... Becuz in the 1st place , Y should the girl lie to you while she really love you ... So what the friends around her is all guys.... As long as her heart is always for you .... She is yours..


To wt:
I already seen your true self... and I already believe that you are a girl that a man should really feel safe even though you went out with guys.. You said that you are not a good gf... I strongly disagree... I know that during this period of time ... you were really stressed about your studies... I can understand how stressful it is to study in MDIS... Although I am not your bf.. But I oso wish that you really can do well for your studies..
1st: Studies
2nd:Family
3rd:Friends
4th:boyfriend

This is how you line up you life right ?? To everyone .. Its the same... So there nothing to feel bad about ... Same goes for guys..

1st: Career
2nd: Family (including wife)
3rd: Friends
4th: Own hobbies

If a guy with no stable career , How can the guy bring happiness and stable lifestyle for his family.. A relationship takes to person to maintain it.. If everything were to blame it on you ... then what the hell is he doing ??? Nothing ??? I m a person that encounter a "dan lian". I know how its feel.. At first I oso feel that everyone was my fault... but after some time.. I feel that ... Its no 1 fault... Its the memories that we should cherish ... throughout the whole 3 yrs of relationship .. I am the only 1 that trying to add colour into the picture... But actually its wasn't ... My ex did try to add on to it.. but everyone got their limit.. Everyone should noe the limit.. once you cross over the limit .. things gets nasty..


To love you was what wanted , To be with you was what I ever wished for... Now I won't stress you anymore... I will just stay here and wait for you .. becoz i think there nothing much more I can do.. whatever i do you might think is a nonsense... So in order not to make you hate me ... I just stay on .. Caring for you behind you ... trying to prevent you from hurting yourself... try to do what I can do .. Becuz this is what a person who really love you will do it ... Which guy will wan to stress out and force the girl he like ... I admit I am ... But I dun wan to do it ... Its no point to use force or stress the girl to be with you ... Its pointless... So what I successfully break the 2 of u up... then be my girlfriend but your heart isn't wiith me ... totally pointless... I will just wait..

As I said.. I believe that there are things that can be solved... A relationship need 2 person to work it out .. you can have my trust... =) and I hope u trust me too...


Love you ... =)
Kenpachi.87 Written on 10:10 AM